I'm not ready to face death, I think most people at my age aren't. But this fear for death gets even bigger when the thought of someone I know might go before I do. I remember how devasted I was at my uncle's funeral when I was 15, and it felt like a big piece of sky above me fell out. I can hardly imagine how it would be when my parents, or anyone I care about leave me like that.
A selfish thought once came to my mind-- I'd rather die young, so I don't have to handle the loss of my most loved ones. But this isn't fair to people who love me, so I've never told anyone about this, especially my family members. It has always been a strict taboo to talk about death, at least in our culture. The fear of losing the closest ones seems to scare everybody.
Living in a world without the ones you love is tough, but the courage to continue life comes from the experience and understanding of being human. As life goes on I might evantually accept the fact that one day we all have to leave, and that action only takes seconds. What truly important is how we get there: being born, growing up, happiness, sorrow, pain, laughter, tears, love, hatred, regrets, forgiveness, diseases, wounds, and finally death. It may appear to be a long journey to walk through, and it's too difficult to predict what would happen the next second. But cherishing and enjoying what we have at the moment minimize the regrets we have when either our own or others' lives end. Like William Ross Wallace once said:
Every man dies- Not Every man really lives.
Yiran, I really liked this post! I feel the same way. When I think of my loved ones passing on I get a lump in my throat and my eyes tear up a bit. But I agree with you that we have to go on, and if anything,we have memories of all the great times together. Everyone will experience death differently but I think the most important part to remember is to rejoice in the person you knew and loved. That way you can carry on their greatness with memories that you share/pass on. I never knew my mothers father but all the stories åI hear about him help to keep him and his life story alive.
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